Monday, December 23, 2013

smuggler from avalon

smuggler from avalon


i am the thief
        under
              paladin
eyes with suspicion

from the shrine's
         darkness lift a song
for a loaf of bread
and the pleasure of cliché

is heaven such? a place
prepared, or travels
                it with you?

i've not the heart
to say if you look out
           your door
there find it returns
          and the truth with it

Reputation, Part III

Reputation
Part III

Even if the money was rolling in now, free drinks were--and would always be--nice. Tirai had received enough in her time from that sadder variety of suitor who thinks every woman at a bar is up for it, but to get them for being a legend: ah, that just plain made them taste better.
    The year was wearing on, and job after job yielded great stories. Going hand-to-gun with a man in powered armor was soon eclipsed by diving onto a target’s ship from a kilometer above and nailing it without the need for jump jets, rounding up ten gangsters while sharing an elevator with them, and taking down the Union’s most wanted with just a steel file and a torn curtain.
    Not that I got away free and clear, she thought, looking round the bar and seeing no sign of Quenn. Her partner had, understandably, not been thrilled with the broken equipment, wounds and blood that went with the whole sideshow, and had opted to avoid the bars on R&R time.
    “I’ll leave you to your adoring public,” Quenn had said.
    Fine, who needs ya. Tirai hardly listened as hard-faced men told her stories--hell, gushed--about her own exploits as if she weren’t there.
    “No, no, you idiot,” one insisted, jabbing his finger at another, “when she took The Arup-Choim Bandits down, it was all six of the head guys, and it was in their headquarters. Big ritzy place on one of the Huitzilo orbitals.”
    “Bullshit, she caught them in the middle of a freighter job and took ‘em planetside on Cyrus. How can you not remember this? She tied ‘em up and took ‘em to a mountaintop and waited for the Union to come pick ‘em up.”
    So close, boys, except not at all. Not that it mattered. Before she knew it, the barkeep was ushering the loudmouths out, and most of her adoring fans quickly followed them out, smelling blood. That left her and . . . someone she hadn’t noticed before. A well-dressed man, more than well-dressed enough to stick out like a sore thumb. He finished off his glass of what looked to be neat scotch and adjusted his tie.
    “May I?” His voice was smooth, his eyes analytical: a strict business type, then. That just made him seem more out of place, but Tirai welcomed the change, nodding at him and rapping the bar with her knuckles. The man had settled neatly into the stool adjacent hers by the time her gin was topped off.
    “So, Mister May I, what can I do for you?”
    “You may call me Fyodor. You can infer, I think, that I am not here on my own behalf.”
    “I suppose I can. You seem like the type that won’t tell me whose behalf he is here on.”
    “A fair observation, but secrecy gains us nothing this time. I am here representing a handful of the parties who have posted bounties to the off-net listings on Marduk,” he said, in a low whisper.
    “More work?” Tirai arched a brow. “Listen, I don’t take direct commissions. Your friends have something good, they can put it out there and I’ll see if I want to take it on.”
    “That is not quite why I’m here,” Fyodor said, still betraying no emotion. “Rather, those I represent are unhappy with certain aspects of your work. I think that a crowd in a common bar in the middle of nowhere paying enough attention to it to swap tall stories summarizes the problem. You are making a spectacle of yourself.”
    “. . . are you kidding me?” Tirai groaned and took an open-mouthed swig of her drink. “So I’ve been a bit flashy lately. A bounty hunter has to make a name for herself, you know how it is. I’m not a merc, so I’m having to race for every mark I take. An inside line is worth a lot, and a rep’s the only way to get one. Hell, your friends’ little underground listing is three-quarters of my income this year so far.”
    “Inside lines are indeed valuable, not only to you, but to my clients, as well. Listings such as those they employ exist for discretionary purposes. You were granted access in part because of your record of quiet effectiveness up until this year, with the assumption that you understood its value. Your recent forays have drawn far too much attention to those on whom the bounties were placed. Investigations have been set in motion. Journalists have started poking in places they shouldn’t.” Fyodor fixed her with his steely gaze, though the rest of his body seemed perfectly still.
    “So, what, are you about to threaten me?” It was almost enough to make her laugh. Almost.
    “Not at all. Your indiscretion has had a material cost to many of my clients, number in the millions of enla already. However, in acknowledgment of their belief that the damage you’ve saved them from through your work far exceeds that, they are willing to pay you a sum of sixty-three-million enla and permit you continued access to the Marduk listings if you were to scale back the theatrics. I call that an offer, not a threat.”
    The figure was enough to make Tirai’s heart skip and her mind fish for reasons to go along with it.
    Shit, that’s six busy, lucky years right there. Money like that, Quenn and I could--but she took it no further.
    “You think I do this just for the paycheck?” she barked.
    Fyodor almost smiled at that. “I have no interest in speculating on your reasons.”
    “Well, maybe your clients would like to know, before they go waving money at my face. I do this because I’m good at it. I’m damn good at it, and I’m going to keep going until I’m the best and everyone knows it.” She slammed the bar, her glass rattling with the impact.
    “Reconsider,” the man replied, not even blinking. “Those who need to know are all fully aware of your great worth. Because they are so aware, I would think you’d want to avoid reducing that worth irretrievably.”
    “Now that sounds enough like a threat.”
    “You are free to interpret it that way, or as a gentle reminder that there are always enough bounty hunters to solve my clients’ problems, with or without you.” Fyodor rose in one easy, deliberate motion, and looked down at Tirai, his almost-smile completely gone. “I’m going to leave this bar, and I am going to inform my clients that I have relayed their wishes. In acknowledgment of the gravity of this decision, they have elected to take the conduct of your next operation as a reply, and will respond accordingly.”
    Tirai clenched her teeth and hunched over her drink, watching the man’s back as he walked away. She could feel the heat filling her face, knew even then she was about to swat at a beast she probably shouldn’t, but none of that mattered. She was finally on top, where she’d always belonged, and they wanted to take that away from her.
    “You can have my answer right now! Get spaced!” She only realized a moment later that the strange sensation in her palm and the mortified look on the barkeep’s face were owing to the glass she’d shattered with her shaking hand.
    Quenn didn’t fail to notice that one of her hands was wrapped in bandages when she returned to the ship.
    “Please, please tell me you didn’t get in a barfight.”
    “I did not get in a barfight,” Tirai grunted.
    Quenn blinked. “. . . okay, I actually can’t tell if that was sarcasm or not, and that’s freaking me out.”
    “No barfight. Just.” Tirai slumped into the gunner’s chair and heaved a sigh. “Some suit showed up and says some people on Marduk want me to go back to doing things quietly--”
    “Amen.”
    “--and offered a sixty-three-million enla payoff to do it.”
    “Hallelujah!” Quenn’s hands waved ecstatically. Then, a pause. “You turned it down?
    “The guy said they’d ‘respond accordingly’ to however we play the next job, whatever that means. But I told him to--”
    “Get spaced, yeah, I know your favorites, Monoure.”
    “I thought we had this discussion already, you said you understood.”
    “Wanting to play things a bit flashy to build a brand, I get that. Fine. I don’t like it, but I get it.” Quenn jabbed a finger straight into Tirai’s sternum, damn near pinning her to the chair with it. “But when an offer like that comes along, and all you have to do is ease off for a bit, and you do your damnedest to throw that away without even talking to me? Are we still partners, or did I miss something?”
    “We are, but--”
    “This is more than just about the brand, isn’t it. This legend thing, that you’ve got going? You just need everyone to know how damn great you are.”
    The words themselves didn’t bother Tirai so much. She could stroll all up and down Memory Lane and find a thousand strings just like them. No, what got to her was that Quenn’s face didn’t hold any of the anger or wounded pride she was used to. No, instead, her partner just seemed worried.
    “Because I am great! I’m the best there is, Quenn, or haven’t you noticed that I’ve kicked every ass that’s crossed my path? And I’m going to keep it that way until the day I die, so no one forgets my name. Understand?”
    Tirai was surprised at herself. Her throat hurt, her mouth felt dry, her breathing rushed. She held Quenn’s hand in a vice-like grip, the androgyne’s mouth agape.
    “I--okay, wow.”
    “Quenn, I’m sorry.”
    “No, it’s--you needed to say that, I guess? I kind of knew, but . . . listen, I’m going to take a break for a while.”
    A break. Tirai would never have figured that such simple words would ever chill her so.
    “A break from what?” She winced preemptively as she asked.
    “From all this, bounties and such. I’m tired, I’m scared for you, I just need to rest for a bit. Maybe you need some time to do things your own way, I don’t know.”
    And just like that, they fell into silence. Tirai thought of a hundred things she could say to get the last word, but she let them all fall away. Quenn took them back into Union space and disembarked in orbit round Subutai, asking for three months’ time. They parted with a kiss, and that was it. Tirai herself hung around the orbital for a few days, took on a small crew and set out to round up a few more marks. She took two more with her now well-known flair, but heard nothing more from Fyodor or his ‘clients.’
    As soon as the money was in her account, Tirai paid off the crew and disbanded them, putting the ship in at the Maurya orbital, with thoughts of returning home until Quenn reached out to her. While she mulled it over, she took to the streets, wandering the long central arcade of the orbital’s densest district. It had been a habit of hers for years, but this time the many open shops, restaurants and parks seemed to hold no attraction.
    Oh, right, because this was always Quenn’s thing. She sighed and let herself drop into a nearby bench, eyes unfocusing as people walked by. She only barely noticed the space next to her being filled by a woman, clearly up there in years judging by the greying hair and the wrinkling skin.
    “You’re Monoure Tirai, aren’t you?” she said, smiling.
    “Heh, yeah, that’s me.” It was almost ridiculous, really, that she had gone from a normal bounty hunter to someone strangers pick out on the street in such a short time.
But this is what I’ve always wanted.
“I’ve heard stories, you’re quite impressive. My daughter won’t stop talking about your work.”
“Thanks, I try.” Not exactly sterling fan-handling, but at least it’s the truth. “Your daughter wants to be a bounty hunter when she grows up?”
“Oh, you’re sweet. No, I’m quite a bit older than that, she’s probably only a year or two younger than you. She’s just had an interest in it ever since she dated a bounty hunter a few years back.”
“That can be rough. We don’t exactly have a lot of people skills,” Tirai said, looking to the ground as she thought of Quenn’s astonished face. The woman was polite enough to let the comment pass and resume with good humor. They passed another half-hour in idle chatter, about the woman’s daughter, mostly. It was strangely refreshing not to be thinking about work for a bit, though that ended before Tirai could enjoy herself too much.
“So, are you here on work? Are you scoping out the target right now?” the woman asked, lowering her voice and feigning a conspiratorial look. Tirai debated the merits of telling her that she was, in fact, doing just that and sending her on her way, but she couldn’t quite muster the energy to lie.
“No, I’m just here to take my mind off some things. My partner and I had some big, stupid argument because I’m too much of an ass to think things through.”
“You seem to be ready to talk now. Doesn’t that mean you’ve made some progress?”
“I guess. It’s just, we’re supposed to be apart for three months and--I don’t know.”
“Oh, please. If some big, boisterous hunter is so down, it’s obviously not something that should wait.” The woman smiled at Tirai softly and patted her shoulder. “Do you love your partner?”
“Yes, I do.”
“And your partner loves you.”
“Yes.”
“Then go. Maybe that’s what you should be hunting right now.”
“Hah! That was pretty bad,” Tirai said, smiling.
“I’m a widow, I’ve had to learn to make dad jokes along the way, and I’ll have you know I take pride in it.” The woman puffed herself up, though she was fighting a smirk. “But, honestly.”
“You’re right. I’m going to go back and work this stuff out. Thank you, thank you.”
Tirai had run all the way back to her ship when she realized she hadn’t even gotten the woman’s name, and cursed herself. Still, there was no way she’d still be sitting at that same bench by the time she got back, so she sealed up the ship, set out from the orbital and laid in a course for Subutai.

And that was when this started. Tirai thought, rolling over onto her back as the last of her suit’s power drained away. She thought of willing it to open, but she was out of ideas, and she didn’t want to find out how much of herself was being held together by the armor casing. The monster was already upon her as the suit’s systems went dark, its heavy hand reaching down and ripping her helmet off, just as she had done to Christopher’s men. She wanted to laugh at the bitter irony, but she only had room for two thoughts.
I am going to die here, and I won’t be able to apologize to Quenn.
She lay there bleeding on the floor of her own ship, hundreds of megameters from any sign of civilization, with the dark green form of another suit of powered armor looming over her. It wasn’t too hard to piece together that this was the ‘response’ Fyodor had been talking about, but as the seconds passed and turned into a minute, then two, what puzzled her was why she wasn’t dead yet.
“Good news,” a voice came from the suit’s speakers. Tirai’s eyes widened immediately, she nearly choked on blood in her surprise; that voice belonged to her friend on the bench. “I’ve convinced them that you don’t have to die.”
“Y-you--” Tirai frowned. Had speaking always been this hard? Did the effort always make her so dizzy?
“You’re in a bad way, Tirai, don’t speak. Listen, here’s what I want to happen. I injure you more, badly enough that you need to be hospitalized for a while, and at great expense, but I don’t actually kill you. Orin Cheung? This job was all he had in his life.”
Ah, so that’s what it was, Tirai thought.
“But you have your partner, something else to live for. After enough people see you like this, your reputation’s gone, so there’s no more problem.” A pause. “Unless you’d rather I kill you while you’re still riding high?”
            In that moment, as consciousness fled from her, Monoure Tirai had to admit that she wanted to live more than she wanted to be remembered.

-END-

Monday, December 16, 2013

metallurgist

metallurgist
after the first day
i learned
to work in truths as others
        work in metal;
under great
duress, purity won
by heat seething in
reprieve

repeat

even
shod in denial to
tear the living (soil) from
       the earth with each
step toward you my feet
        ache so

     stones in
the path cut

i, just,
have nothing
         left to give,
returned,
               taking

Reputation, Part II

Reputation
Part II 

It was during the fifth job of the year that Tirai decided to make things more interesting. The work had been treating her and Quenn well enough, but when she overheard people talking about her in bars around the system, there wasn’t any of the hushed fear that Orin Leung had received. It was a straightforward single-head, dead-or-alive on Thales Christopher, himself a former bounty hunter.
    A brief high-orbit chase had gone planetside in a hurry, and now the shapes of a vast city coalesced on the horizon. Christopher was a decent pilot, but not enough to trouble a tracking computer; three times Tirai had him firmly in sight, three times she’d waited until he broke away and grazed him.
    “Tirai, dearest,” Quenn asked from the pilot’s seat, “could you please explain to me just what the Hell you’re doing?”
    “Oh, you know, just building the anticipation a bit. Don’t want this to be too easy, do we?”
    “Actually, I--damn it!” Quenn’s teeth clenched as Christopher’s ship released the last of its mines, the sphere falling backwards for a split second, then bursting into flames, casting shards of shrapnel off in all directions. The androgyne’s augmented reflexes saved them, a swift change of thrust direction banking their ship far enough from the mine for electromag shielding to cope with it. Quenn let out a clipped sigh.
    “As I was saying, too easy is exactly what I want. Now let’s finish this off before he--”
    Sensing an opportunity, Christopher bore down towards the city at full speed.
    “--does that.”
    Perfect, Tirai thought, grinning.
    “Let’s go, let’s go,” she shouted. She could just feel Quenn’s worried gaze, but ignored it in favor of the tension building in every muscle of her body. She abruptly jumped out of the gunnery seat and ran out of the cockpit.
    “What the--where are you going?”
    “He’s going to land somewhere in the city, I’ll have to chase him on foot. I’m suiting up.” Tirai bolted out the doorway, Quenn’s objection muffled, indecipherable as she ran to the armory. It was a giddy feeling, rushing to put her armor on, speeding through the systems checks as the ship hummed and pitched through the atmosphere. In the beginning, there’d been a few jobs like this, before she knew her business, before Quenn knew how to cover for her screw-ups. Shots were missed, covers blown, routes miscalculated, and everything had to be settled on the ground. Sometimes the other guy’d gotten away, and they’d had to go on empty stomachs until the next job. That tenacity had won them a rep, and work.
    I’m different now, she reminded herself, fixing the helmet onto her armor and heading for the deployment ramp in the aft. It’s not just a rep anymore. Quenn’s voice came over the intercom as the ship’s humming began to lessen, and the ramp slowly opened to reveal a landing pad, suddenly in disarray as Christopher’s ship settled, crushing the small civilian speeders beneath.
    “All right, I’m going to swing around lower to drop you off, make sure you’re careful, though. We’re keeping the channel open until you get back on-board in one piece, understand?”
    “Roger that,” Tirai said, staggering her stance. She could feel the armor’s neural mapping fully attuned to her will, her awareness of it apart from her own body dwindling with every second. Christopher’s own deployment ramp opened, and she saw three grey-armored figures burst out, arm-mounted chainguns blazing to clear the way. One of them looked up, saw the ship looming over head like a bird of prey, and fired off a small missile from a shoulder-mount.
    She knew her suit too well to feel fear at the sight. Responding to her instincts, her own shoulder-mount activated, striking the head of the missile with a small laser, piercing its thin heat-shielding in microseconds. The small explosion hid them from her view, but she’d had all the time she needed to make the required calculations. She crouched down, and even as Quenn was shouting something she hardly noticed, leapt from the ramp and into the fire. Falling through the other side, she landed on top of Christopher’s ship with a satisfying thud. The man himself was already booking it towards the public plaza, but his two buddies had turned back to look. That was a mistake.
    They leveled their chainguns at Tirai, but she was quicker; an electromag grenade had already left her hand, releasing a small pulse as it rolled to their feet. She was pleased to see the two suits slump forward and start shambling awkwardly, their systems out for the time being. It took plenty of practice to work the mechanical microarticulators without the suit’s help, practice her two victims didn’t have.
    “Tirai, are you all right? The explosion--”
    “I’m okay, Quenn. Stay here and watch their ship, all right? I’m going for the prize.”
    “I--wh--okay. Yes. Got it, go.”
    Tirai leapt from atop the ship, landing just between the two immobilized suits, hoisted them up from under the arms and slammed them abruptly into the ground. For good measure, she tore their helmets off, revealing two gruff men, wincing as they prepared as best as possible for having their heads pancaked by huge metal boots.
    “You just stay here like good little boys while the adults settle things,” she said through her speakers. No sooner did she take off after Christopher than she heard Quenn’s voice, even sterner than before.
    “Not that I don’t mind a lower body count but . . . what are you up to, Monoure?”
    Ouch, I’ll be paying for this later, then, Tirai thought. “Don’t worry about it, I just wanted to try something different. Just make sure our new friends are kept uncomfortably aware of how exposed their heads are.”
    Silence.
    Christopher’s mistake was hedging the bet on his escape by putting on powered armor. While a normal person running through a crowd creates little disturbance, she had no trouble following the gap left by people sidestepping in a panic, gaping after the giant metal form that had just barreled past. Unfortunately, that also meant she’d be racing the local police for the bounty before too long. She pushed her suit’s speed to its limits, catching sight of him on a ramp further down into the city.
    Thanks for clearing a path. Tirai willed a small burst of thrust from her jump jets, clearing half the distance in a second, loping ahead with the momentum. As she bore down on him, she knew his onboard systems would alert him to her charge. The smart move would have been to take a leap off the ramp, or take a hostage. But Christopher wasn’t too smart.
    He faced her and opened fire, chaingun thundering as the bullets issued forth. Her magnetic shielding slowed them to a crawl, her armor shrugging them off effortlessly. By the time he thought to reach for a vibrosword, she was already squared off in front of him, throwing her great metal fist straight into his helmet.
    He reeled back, but quickly detached his chaingun to free up his hand and started swinging the sword. Tirai’s better instincts tried to draw her own weapon; the rest of her instincts raised her arms in a high guard and threw another jab for Christopher’s head. The pounding sound it made was satisfying, exciting, and she felt a certain freedom ducking and dodging his attacks, knowing one wrong move could shift the balance. He swung wide, she dove in, grabbed his shoulders and drove her knee into him with a little help from her jets. His whole suit rattled, and he could barely catch himself from falling forward.
    “Crazy bitch,” Christopher groaned through his speaker. Tirai only laughed, starting to shift her weight from leg to leg with as jaunty a bounce as her armor allowed. Her one-two punches flew true, leaving a deep dent in the front of the man’s helmet.
    “Shut up and keep it coming. It’s just starting to get fun,” she shouted. By now the fear had subsided enough that people were poking their heads out from behind cover. Her scanners even picked up a few brave souls walking out to get a better look. Somewhere up above, she knew the cops had to be watching. The audience would do.
    Christopher snarled and went all in, lifting his blade skyward and slashing it down with all his strength--a great cleaving stroke effortlessly swatted aside by a well-timed push on his elbow, the tip of the vibrosword chewing into the pavement. Tirai wished he could see her grin as she came in low, driving all her armor’s strength into a ferocious hook that dug into his side, caved in his armor, and sent him tumbling to the ground. He made a weak attempt to get up, but it was over.
    “It’s done, Quenn, I got him.”
    “Are you in one piece?”
    “Better than that, I--”
    “Good. Wrap him up, bring him back and let’s go.”
    Tirai sighed and trotted over to Christopher, knelt down and proceeded to rip his armor open. He was already disconnecting from the suit when she could see him, scrambling to get away, but her suit’s firm grip on his shoulder stilled him. He growled, sounding more annoyed than angry. She bound him in heavy wire from a wrist-mount and slung him over her shoulder, savoring the walk back up the ramp as cheers from the crowd washed over her.
    “You’ve been a big help, you know. This is going to make a great story,” Tirai said.
    When she returned to the landing pad, the local law had shown up, grounding her ship and arresting Christopher’s two goons. Quenn was patiently walking the skeptical officers through their licensure and the bounty parameters, news crews lingering overhead.
    Quenn nodded towards their ship. “Go ahead and toss him in the holding cell.”
    One of the three officers pulled a face, looking over his shoulder at Tirai. “Now just hold on a sec--”
“Sergeant, eyes front and center. You were just in the middle of recognizing our credentials.”
Even in her armor, Tirai felt the urge to shield herself with her shoulders and skulk off from her partner’s evident frustration. She hoped, as she led Christopher into his new accommodations onboard, that Quenn didn’t lose cool with the law and get them stranded here and stripped of their right to bounty. A few minutes later saw the pilot walking up the aft ramp and straight for the cockpit.
“Tirai, with me,” Quenn said sternly. Christopher seemed to take in the situation readily, and chuckled as Tirai removed her armor.
“Knowing my luck, you’re going to cut me in half so you can split the bounty when you split up.”
“Don’t flatter yourself, boyo, it will take a much bigger job than you to do that.”
With that, Tirai jogged through the ship to the bow, where Quenn was programming their ship’s route with unusually stiff, rapid finger movements. No sign of acknowledgment, just a simple gesture at the gunner’s chair until the work was done.
“So, you’re upset.”
“Mhm.” The androgyne took one last look at the console, then turned to face Tirai, sighing.
“Look, I’m not that upset, I was just surprised. Care to explain what all that was?”
    “Just a little theatre,” Tirai said, grinning.
    “You put both of us in danger.”
    “Danger? Were you looking at what I was?”
    “Okay, yes, Thales Christopher is not exactly a looming threat,” Quenn replied, eyes rolling, “but you get my point.”
    “I thought you would have been happy with me not dusting the guy.”
    “Monoure, we both know you haven’t gone pacifist, so just . . . tell me what’s up, okay?”
    Tirai wanted to ignore it, but Quenn’s worried eyes were disarming; just plain unfair.
    “I’m just trying to keep up the reputation, that’s all. We’re on top right now, but that doesn’t mean we can slack off,” Tirai said.
    “That’s exactly what it means. Easy bounties for rich people who want things done quickly: we were just about drowning in them back on Marduk. It’s bad enough you still want to risk your ass out there but--”
    “Quenn, Quenn,” Tirai said, reaching out and wrapping her fingers around the androgyne’s delicate hand. “Listen, you know this is what I love doing, right?”
    “Yes, of course, but--”
    “And I’m good at it?”
    “That’s hardly the iss--”
    “And you like doing this? With me?”
    “. . . yes.”
    Tirai smiled widely, leaned in and kissed Quenn softly.
    “Then trust me on this. Let’s take risks, build a real rep. You just know they’ll be talking about me taking a guy down with fisticuffs for months.”
    Quenn laughed, looking skeptical.
    “You punched him into surrendering?”
    “Damn right,” Tirai said, jumping up into a boxing stance and throwing a few quick jabs. “Marcus of Greensborough rules and all.”
    “Marquess of Queensbury.”
    “Sure. He called me a crazy bitch, too.”
    “He’s not wrong,” Quenn said, smiling. “All right, fine. I’ll let you play your little games, just promise me you’ll give me some warning and . . . that you’ll keep coming back to me in one piece.”
    “Of course,” Tirai said, resting both her hands on Quenn’s shoulders, resting her forehead against her partner’s.

    Ah, that’s right, she thought, firing her jump jets sideways to dodge the monster’s advance. Countless different system alerts beeped at her through her helmet, and she felt the suit’s own fatigue as the jump jets cut power and she tripped forward onto the ground, the monster’s footsteps slowly approaching. She groaned and dragged herself up onto the palms of her hands, crawling away as best as she could, her tired legs shaking, every fiber burning.
    I should have let up then . . .